My heart broke in August for someone I love dearly. Some stories are just not ours to tell...but I have cried my heart out and wrestled with the fact that there are some things in life that just don't make sense. And sometimes God answers our prayers in ways that we don't like or understand and may never understand in this life. And that is just hard.
Isabella got super sick in August with some mystery virus. And since then we have been to the dr. for sick visits more than I think in her whole life total. As sick as she was we were home for all of a week and a good part of another. Which worked out with having people out to the house to do all kinds of repairs from the storm.
Things have felt a little in survival mode with these things going on and Michael having a of couple out of town trips. Turns out staying at home and caring for a sick child around the clock and being concerned about their health, has been stressful. Michael has also been working really hard late into the night to meet his book deadline coming up. Benjamin has been waking up more at night, Isabella's sleep has been off and she has been up a lot several nights, and tired seems to be coming the new normal- even more than the regular having-a-baby-tired can be. I've been trying to catch naps any time I can and just be OK with letting some things go and loving iced coffee.
Here is a phone picture update from last month:
So grateful for these two!!
Love his sweet hand on mine.
Poor sick Izzy :( (With crumbs on her face...that wasn't part of the virus. Haha!)
A drastic change from her usual active self
Playing with cousin Carper at Johnnies in El Reno
4 Month Birthday!
While not my favorite month this year, I was impacted by these experiences and they are part of the story of our family. I already knew it, but I've been reminded so many times how blessed we are with loving, supportive family on both sides that do so much to help with our kids, offer air conditioned places for us to say, come to Dr appointments, or anything else we need help with. I've been a little down about some things, and trying to see more of my blessings...and there are so many, each and every day.
****This song has been playing in my head on repeat for the past few weeks :